If U're in a relationship, married or none, read this. U'll know why at the end

MARRIAGE 

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. 

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. 

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? 

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! 

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. 

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. 

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. 

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. 

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. 

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. 

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. 

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. 

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside 
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. 

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. 

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. 

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. 

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. 

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. 

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. 

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. 

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore. 

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. 

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. 

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. 

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. 
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband.... 

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! 

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you. 

If you do, you just might save a marriage. 
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. 

A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME. 

So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

By Stephanie Halmilton

bought new stuff~ happy i.n.g~

now is already 4.30am
actually is damn sleepy and tired
but i'm still awake for writing something new on my blog
this morning was my 1st time visit to beauty fair v my dar~
not bad~ at least the place wasn't too packed~
i bought a new stuff from there

it's small!
it's cute!

it's convenient!

it's a korea product~
mini hair styling iron!
can make wave~ straight~ curl~ whatever i like ^.^
it's awesome rite! lolx~
besides that,
3 of us did a halo tattoo~


it's a temporary tattoo,
it can lasting about 3 to 6 days~^^

i thought i can show it off on tomorrow night partayyy

but...
end up!!!
baby bear doesn't let me go
big big sighhhh~

but...

stick to the plan!

we still have massage time for us~

i need massage!

i want detox~

i want balancing my body sense~

yeah!!!

tomorrow will be another good good day again^.^

I ♥ my sagittarius boy friend

The Sagittarius people are nice to have around. Usually they are jovial and fun so they make great friends. They enjoy life and love to do lots of different things. They love to be the life of the party and are great conversationalists.

When you are involved with a Sagittarius man you will find life to be filled with adventure. The Sagittarius man is a very energetic person. He is filled with vitality and loves to travel and explore. You can see how easily it is to fall into love with a Sagittarius man. Sagittarius love is an adventure, one that you will treasure the rest of your life.

The Sagittarius man has a good, quick mind and is very spiritual. They are usually very successful in anything that they try to do because they stick to something and see it through until the end. A Sagittarius man is very generous, so you will probably find that you are lavished with gifts. Because he is also frugal he will do well in life

All in all when you are in love with a Sagittarius man you will have fun. It will be an adventure in Sagittarius love and there will be many fond memories for you, indeed. Just get to know the Sagittarius traits and you should be able to handle the ups and the downs. There will be a few, but when it is good it is really good.

recent life

have been a long time write nothing in this blog

anyway my recent life was full of happinesss

yeahh!!!

but...

my dad was starting grumble at me 

because i shift out stay v my baby bear

he was quite worry me i know 

but dad do u know

i'm a BIG BIG GIRL in this BIG BIG WORLD

i'm not a SMALL GIRL anymore

however i promise you

i will finish my uni course

i won't fall you...

because i do love u dad =)

Lady Gaga - Optimist

Its over
Youre like the defintion of negative
Always complainin, your such a pestimist
Your cup is always half empty
Im just so sick of it
I got a different perspective

My copies level
My sky is never gray
You cant bring be down anymore baby
My future is bright
Cant wait to face the day
Theres one thing you should know about me

Im a optimist
Im so positive
That youll never get another chance with me baby
Im a optimist
Im so positive
That your chances blown, boy your gone spread your negativity
(Im an optimist, opp-pot-timist-opp-pot-timist)

Youre such a downer
Youre never satisfied
You keep on giving your face or silver line
On the horizon, so boy dont even try
Injectin me with your negative vibes

My copies level
My sky is never gray
You cant bring be down anymore baby
My future is bright
Cant wait to face the day
Theres one thing you should know about me

Im a optimist
Im so positive
That youll never get another chance with me baby
Im a optimist
Im so positive
That your chances blown, boy your gone spread your negativity

Im an optimist
Im spontanious
I need front and exact-ment and ready set
Here I come
Take the robust off
Grab life by the palms
And I still am young
And If you wanna act old
If you wanna be cold
I guess but baby you should kn-o-w-o-w-o-w-o-w

Tongue in Chic - New on the Block: Cotton On in Malaysia!

Tongue in Chic - New on the Block: Cotton On in Malaysia!

recently i've been fall in ♥ v COTTON ON

no reason~

i jz simply   ♥ it's style

♥ it's cutting

♥ it's trend  

3 words describe enuf

crazy for it 

>.<

 i ♥ it

Elton John - Your song (legendado)

I ♥ You

I ♥ Your Smile.

I ♥ Your Eyes.

I ♥ You

And I ♥ Everyhting About You :)

Cause you were made for me.

Somehow I'll make you see how happy you make me.

I can't live this life without you by my side.

I need you to survive.

So stay with me... ♥

be tough

no choice...
need to pretending a while

in order to solve relationship problem

time will prove everything

be tough celyna

......

Life is...

Life is a challenge - meet it.

Life is a gift - accept it.

Life is an adventure - dare it.

Life is a sorrow - overcome it.

Life is a tragedy - face it.

Life is a duty - perform it.

Life is a game - play it.

Life is a mystery - unfold it. 

Life is a song - sing it.

Life is an opportunity - take it.

Life is a journey - complete it.

Life is a promise - fulfill it.

Life is a beauty - praise it.

Life is a struggle - fight it.

Life is a goal - achieve it.

Life is a puzzle - solve it.

Life is eternal - believe it.

When a GIRL...

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday.... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy ..

who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who .... kisses your forehead..

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats..

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

It's complicated

wednesday nite went to putrajaya alamanda

watch "it's complicated" v my lovely family

this is a comedy & romance movie

don't get any funnier than this

all of us laugh out loud

wakaka xD

those who r not yet watch it

should go to watch it

trust me!!!

it's awesome!!!

happiness

yippeee~

h.a.p.p.y ing

in lov3 v my bab3 harche3 bear